My dearest one

Pain that I have been recently feeling,

All that I wish for is complete happiness and an immense amount of healing,

I don’t know why, but as I look into blank space above me is the ceiling,

I compare my pain to quicksand as I’ve sunken to a boundless amount of believing.

My dearest one I really can’t compare,

Maybe I’ve met you already, but for now all I feel is despair,

Overwhelmed with emotional madness so let me clear the air,

I think I’m in love, but I guess it’s nobody’s job to really care.

I don’t know how to keep my emotions and impulses disconnected,

Each day is an emotional roller coaster as I’ve failed to maintain the emotional stability that I’ve once

invented,

At times I am overwhelmed with unconscious pleasure that I wish I would of prevented,

I’m conflicted between what I want and what I need, but in the end maybe it’s the luxury to feel wanted

that’s got me addicted.

I fantasize about what you and I could possibly be,

My heart increases its pace as I’ve never known this joy that you bring to me,

I wish I could take it further because I know the experience would be extremely heavenly,

But I guess it’s the illusions inside my head that are trying to overpower the reality.

By: Blanca - Leigh Moolman